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I try to keep a positive outlook and not add to the general negativity of the internet, but some days just suck, you know? I've been grinding away at this art career thing for seven years now (seven years?!), and sometimes it feels like I'm getting nowhere, or going backwards. Before I took the plunge and went to art school, I was taking accounting classes. Practical, right? Talk about job security; if death and taxes are the only sure things, then you're always going to need accountants.
But no! I thought, I'll follow my passion, my dream. Fabulous. But what is the point if you can't keep food on the table or a roof over your kid's head? Dreams and passion alone don't pay the bills.
Accounting, though. Accounting is practical! It's objective. It doesn't matter whether or not people like your work: what's to like? Either the math is right or it isn't. It's not a matter of taste, it's a matter of fact.
Maybe I'm gloomy because, even though this sketch card thing I've fallen into is fun, it doesn't really pay the bills, and it's not what I'd call artistically satisfying. Isn't that a pretentious phrase? "Artistically satisfying." Bah. And you know what else you fall into? Ruts. Maybe I'm in a rut?
I've just realized I've scheduled my entire "summer off," when I was planning to finish my novel, with official card sets. That's awesome, right? I'm busy, my art on these sets is desired--by the art directors, at least, even if the collectors don't seem to give much of a damn--life is good, right? RIGHT?!
Yeah. I guess this just isn't what I wanted to be doing with my life. Grinding out hundreds of little bitty pieces of artwork for pennies an hour, never a minute of time for my own projects, my own creativity. It's not that I want to be an accountant, maybe I'd just rather only be accountable to myself?
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Gloomy 
Artistically; you have exceptional talent.
I can definitely understand your attitude towards accounting; those jobs based around facts and figures can be somewhat "safe" in that it is what it is.. there's no stylistic difference or judgement calls to be made.
To be accountable only to yourself is a great ideal; and I can definitely see the appeal.
And thanks for the encouragement! Most artists are left-brain people, but I'm an even split between left and right brain, dreamer and practical, so I frequently war with myself.
Lulz aside, do what you feel is best for you even if it seems risky or doesn't seem practical. There's always the catch 22 of "Well I have to do the realistic thing and keep food on the table" but it is definitely okay to still find the time for your heart's true desires and goals and hoarde that personal time and bite those who would try to take it away... especially if they're only offering pennies an hour >_>. If that makes any sense whatsoever.
Me, personally, I'm liking the sound of a future possibility of drawing what I want and writing all day long instead of hunching over tiny paper all the time
Totally makes sense! And, man, I do enjoy the tiny bits of paper, but one wants to stretch out onto a larger canvas now and then.